I think I am going to refer to it as Twenty-Ten. It rolls off the tongue nicely.
When the New Year rolls into town I write a letter. It's a tradition I've kept since 2005. Every year I go back and read the old ones and write my new one.
I love reading them. I see my life events unfolding, shaping and changing me. I recommend it to anyone.
If you care to share in my journey I have included some of my favorite quotes from letters of years past. Some make me laugh, others just plain take me back.
January 2005 (21 years old)
"I think I want what everyone wants. No, I want more….I always have"
"Its time to let go of it all….so bad things happen…so what, you can’t let those bad things eat you alive, and I have begun to do that in my life. I don’t want to be negative. I want to be sunny and light. This is the longest paragraph ever…in the whole history of paragraphs."
January 2006 (22 years old)
"In a lot of ways I feel like I am still 16 years old, wondering what it will be like to be an adult and have a “real” life. Most of the time I feel that way. Does everyone feel that way? Like maybe we just get lost in our everyday activity and one change takes us to another in life until we are so far away from being 16 with dreams that we hardly recognize ourselves."
"I don’t have a boyfriend. I’m not interested in casual dating. I am waiting for the one…in the most romantic way. Haha. I have this dream that I will meet him and just know, like in the movies. It could happen."
January 2007 (23 years old)
The format changed for this years letter...Instead of to myself I wrote it to Drew Jones. I included the whole thing too. Why? Because, 1. I use this blog to flirt with my husband and 2. anyone who has ever fallen in love can relate. And I relish in that.
"I was driving home tonight. It was raining this misty kind of rain that makes it difficult to pick a windshield wiper speed. I was thinking about my friends. Robin, because I just left her house…then Erin. I thought about the way I know Erin, how I know her in this way that I never thought possible to know someone. I thought about how close we are. How I didn’t think I could be that close to anyone. And then I thought of you. I thought about the way you can sense what’s on my heart, the way you can ask me so delicately about something that's hard to talk about…and how I know that you get it, even if you haven’t been through it…you have this way of understanding my heart.
You know how you know something but then all of a sudden you get it in a different way, in a more intense way. Like how you see the sky your whole life and you know it’s blue, but then one day you just see it different, and even though you have known it to be blue this whole time…all of a sudden you realize why you are so lucky to see blue and it seems more vibrant and more beautiful because you realize what a gift it is.
I just realized driving to your house tonight that you are my best friend. And I’ve known that. But tonight I realized it in a different way. I realized that you love the things I love. You get excited about the same things I do. And of course I’ve known that too…but it was just different. I just realized that no one understands me the way you do. I realized how beautiful it is, how sweet it is, how great it is that we are who we are together. I feel like I grew up with you. It seems that that could be the only way that we could understand each other so well, that we could be so similar in just the right ways. But of course we didn’t grow up together, so I smile, knowing that it’s God and he did all this.
I am so in love."
That's all I will share from the dusty diary of New Years past. I am very much looking forward to Twenty-Ten. I anticipate good things. I am yearning for more revelation of God. I plan on seeking, and finding.
Happy New Year to you.