Westley 4 weeks old
"Remember when between the hours of 6 and 9 I would have to put Westley in the stroller and roll him through the living room and kitchen to get him to sleep?"
"Remember when we went to Val's wedding in Cincinatti and we tried to go to a restaurant after the ceremony and we had to leave before we even ordered drinks because Westley was wailing and people were staring?"
"Remember when we took Westley with us to see that awful movie Larry Crowne and I stood in the back of the theater bouncing him the whole time. We were crazy!"
Just the other day we were at Westley's 8 month check up and there was a newborn in the room next to us wailing.
"Remember when that was us?" I said to Drew.
He raised his eyebrows and nods, "I don't miss that."
"No that was a stressful part." I say.
I never admited it (until now) on this blog, but Westley had colic when he was a little little. It took me a long time to admit it to myself because:
a. I didn't really know that all babies didn't cry all.the.time. Because he is my first. I do remember however asking my Mom when she was visiting once, "Is this normal? Did I cry like this?" and she looked at me with scrunched eyebrows and shook her head. She didn't say anything though, I think because she didn't want to scare me and my hormones.
b. Westley was a good baby, no matter if he cried all the time or not. And I didn't want people to hear colic and think of him as "bad". All babies are good. All of them.
So the truth is, he cried most of the day for the first few months and much to the dismay of my aching post partum woman parts I would walk briskly around the house jostling, shushing, bouncing, singing and swinging him for hours and hours.
Now that he is 8 months old and so sweet, easy going and good-natured I look back on those days and really think colic must have really really sucked for him. He isn't one to cry or fuss unless something is REALLY wrong, so whatever colic actually is must of felt pretty bad. Poor baby. I'm glad he won't remember one bit of it. And even though it wasn't easy, I still remember those days as some of the very best of my life to date. He has always had my heart since the moment I laid eyes on him and I truly believe that the hard times of colic just bonded us even more and gave me confidence as his Mama. I hope it had a similar effect for him, confidence that his Mama will always always be there for him, that she'll always be a source of comfort and he can trust her completely.
Westley & me - 7 weeks old