The other night I was home alone.
Drew was picking up a painting, Westley was in bed and some guy
pulled up came to our door and banged on it. I didn't answer
because I didn't know him and I never answer if I don't know the person.
In fact I never answer the door unless I know you are coming.
Anyway the first thing that came to
my mind was, "HOLY CRAP SOME CREEPER READ MY BLOG AND IS STALKING MY
FAMILY AND IS HERE TO ATTACK ME."
That was my first freaking thought.
I called Drew and he was like, "Maybe the guy is old and confused or something and thought it was his house."
Both of these thoughts clearly show some things:
1. We watch too many Dateline shows.
2. We watch too many dramas with plot lines about amnesia and confused people doing strange things.
3. I am afraid of someone reading my blog and getting all creepy on us.
I know it is barely even
realistic. I mean like 20 solid people read this blog. And I pretty much
know all of you. If we've never met, you comment enough that I think we
have and we've probably emailed about baby poop or what the best high
chair is.
But it's nagging me. Maybe it's
the Mama Bear in me. When I go to the grocery store I smile and am kind
to people but there is this hidden Ninja in me ready to throw down a
round house kick to the face to anyone who stares me down in the check
out line and follows me to my car (this has happened to me before as
well as other scarey situations. You see why I embrace my inner Ninja.)
Whatever it is, I want to protect us.
All that is to say, it may be irrational but I may be making this blog private in the near future.
I took a break a few months ago
thinking I would come back strong and ready to share, but I think the
three months has had the opposite effect on me. I have enjoyed telling
my family & friends what is going on with me since they don't
already know. I have taken on more work so that we can make ends meet
here at the Jones Cottage and I so time is still very precious.
But there remains the truth that I do love writing. And I love sharing. And I love that I've become friends with a lot of you.
But that is just it, we are
friends. So just like when high school ends and you go off to college
and start anew, there are some friends that you are still having dinner
with 10 years later and there are some that are just memories. And that
is okay. That is life.
I'll let you know before it happens, but I just wanted to explain a little where I am at so it wasn't a big shock.
Also - who knows I could totally change my mind. That's the beauty of this forum. I can embrace my contrary nature about things such as this.
Love,
Lady Lee Mama Bear Ninja Kick Jones
Hello, some girl knocked on our door after dark this weekend and totally spooked me to death. I swore that I was going to black out all my windows because they could see in at night but I can't see them. And she was a teenager...I can't imagine a confused old man banging my door down.
ReplyDeleteI'm behind you, whatever you need to do.
Even if it's to change your mind.
I told Chloe that I might just open comments back up with no explanation soon, and she was all, "It's too soon, you made such a big deal about it, don't do it yet." And I was all, "I do what I want."
Nobody deserves an explanation except the one you owe yourself.
Do it, girl. Whatever it is.
I'm wrestling with the same conflicted feeling. :-\
ReplyDeleteI have commented before, but I don't do it often. I do enjoy reading, though. And while I'll be sad to see you gone I completely understand! I have a private, personal blog, too. It wasn't always that way, but having my first child just sent me to that same place. It was public for awhile, but then I started hearing from people about personal things, and they meant well, but it kind of sent me over the edge. I kept my food blog public and talk very little about specific family details on it. So, I get it. And you're right to feel that way! It just means you're a good mama bear.
ReplyDeleteOh man, Elizabeth and I had this conversation a while back when I started getting questions about where I work and where Behr's daycare was! Eeekk. Too personal people.
ReplyDeleteIf I didn't live in a secure building, requiring three separate key like devided to get to my house, plus have a 24 hour security guard, I would totally be freaked.
To steal a line from my college lacrosse days, "Protect This House!" (or in your case, your house, home, family, and sanity)
what an experience! i would have freaked out...so i don't blame you.
ReplyDeleteI'd miss your words. I don't comment but I've found your blog through other blogs. I'm a new mom and reading other new mom stories helps me feel like I'm going to make it. But baby and family first. I get that. Always.
ReplyDeleteI only recently found your blog - right before you took a blogging break. But I would definitely miss your writing. I love the way you talk about your family. :) Whatever you decide, I pray God's best for you and your sweet family!
ReplyDeleteI love your writing and your blog!... I don't comment much mostly because I don't always have anything show-stopping to say. :) But, I love your blog. :) That's crazy about the creepy guy though. Sheesh!
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh, that would have pushed me to the brink! I don't blame you for feeling the panic. Others have said it and so will I, I would miss your blog terribly but totally support you in making it private in order to protect your family! Go Mama Ninja!
ReplyDeleteaww that would be sad if you made it private :( i love reading about your sweet little family. but at the same time, i do understand keeping your privacy. it is scary that random people could find you, or any of us bloggers. it's hard knowing where to draw the line with privacy. do what you gotta do girl :)
ReplyDeleteHi Candis. I started following your blog after you did a guest-post on Bridget's after she had her babe. I feel like I have gotten to know you and your sweet family. I'll miss you if you go :-) However, I totally understand your dilemma. I am from South Africa and round here we are more than a little paranoid. I have very little identifying features on my blog - to the point of vagueness. No last names, no address, all I'm willing to say on it is that we stay a 2hrs' drive from Johannesburg, and frankly, that could be anywhere. But reading your blog made me want to start calling my husband by his full name, too. So charming :-) Anyway, thought I'd better de-lurk and say 'hi' before it's too late. All the best to you and yours, whatever you decide to do.
ReplyDeletei hear you. you know how crazy i am about I LIVE IN THE STATE OF MASSACHUSETTS AND I WILL TELL YOU NOTHING ELSE.
ReplyDeletebut yeah, that'd freak me out. and i love your ninja roundhouse kick scenario. do you know i play these things out in my head? how my super mom strength can like pick up a car if parker was under it or how my hands can become swords and chop off a guy's balls (too far?) if he ever threatened me and mine in a dark alley? is this a mom thing?
i never answer the door when someone knocks on it. i'm always home alone and there is no reason why you should be knocking. i remember waking up in the middle of the night, 3 AM, and someone was ringing my buzzer to be let in the building and i totally freaked. so i understand where you're coming from. there are a lot of crazy people out there (i get my neuroses from criminal minds, just like your dateline), but your blog would be sorely missed. i love your writing and have enjoyed reading it, but i hope you make the right choice for yourself and your family.
ReplyDeleteHi Candis, I’m sorry I’ve never really commented before, (bit shy…) but I’ve loved following your blog. (I’m British but live in the UAE.) My husband and I are hoping to start our family soon and it’s been so lovely to read about your sweet little family. Completely understand the need for privacy, & whatever you need to do, you should… but just letting you know you will be missed! Wish you all the best. Aby xx
ReplyDeleteDear LLMBNKJ,
ReplyDeleteAs you are referred to on the streets.
This was my whole concern with blogging initially. Because, let's be honest, we share our full names, often our jobs, pictures of our homes and families, our cities, and if someone really wanted to, they could probably track us down. Yes, that's scary and creepy, but for most blogs (mine included), I think it's true.
I thought blogging and its internet companions would be more than they've turned out to be. I thought it would be more inspiring/connecting/encouraging than it's turned out to be. I don't know, I still don't feel like I know what's really at the heart of it all. I'm sure some people know for themselves, but I can't say I know for me. I don't know that blogging and reading blogs is enriching my life.
All this to say, you have a valid point. And, of course, life will go on without a public blog. I recently dropped facebook and twitter and I agree, living life solely in real time is refreshing.
Happy contemplating, Candis.
I love you and your ninja self.
ReplyDeleteSupporting you always, you know this.
I have to agree with what everyone has said. Of course you should always trust your "mama instinct". It is very real, and it usually rings true.
ReplyDeleteThat being said, I will miss your blog a whole lot if you go ahead and make it private in the future. I have only commented occasionally, but am an avid reader (since about a year ago). You are inspiring in so many ways, and I just really enjoy you're writing, and creativity and "realness". So, thank you for that :)
I've changed my mind back and forth a million times with my blog. Private, not, delete, not, break, back.. it happens. Blogs can be kinda overwhelming. It's totally your choice!
ReplyDeleteI hear you, sometimes I am afraid to move out of home because I think some creeper will break in, I think that's human nature! I think we'd all totes understand if you went private some things are sacred..I'd follow you just the same :)
ReplyDeleteYou know my thoughts on this. AGREE! I don't mind if your blog goes private though because I know you'll share it with me. Selfish? Yes. :o)
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